Memoirs of Boredom (Leon/Cloud 18+)

LionHeart · Leon!Lion

RE: Memoirs of Boredom (Leon/Cloud 18+)

--Strife · Puppies and Wolves In Your SOLDIER!

And Cloud seemed to settle at Leon's side, lying back even with that touch of hesitancy, blond and pale skin against dark coloured material, blue eyes looking to the brunet's and gleaming in the semi darkness. Only to look away for a moment with his words.

One night stand seemed to ring in his mind. No, it would not be a one night stand unless it was never repeated again, never pursued. But it seemed different to that already because he was still there.

"You would be right there. I know one thing though- I do not wish this to be for guilt alone."

LionHeart · Leon!Lion

"And why would this have been from guilt? This started from loneliness and having been to long not having something like this."
A shrug of Leons shoulders as he laid relaxed back against one of pillows arms raised and behind his head to prop himself up. He was not entirely relaxed but he appeared far more now that Cloud was laying beside him again and not going off somewhere alone to brood. Not that he knew he would not have done the same in the same situation.
"Theirs no guilt in what I've done."
What went unsaid was, is their in what you have?
Leon did not feel guilty about any of this, and he was not out to make Cloud feel guilt over it either.

--Strife · Puppies and Wolves In Your SOLDIER!

The added relaxation for the brunet with just having Cloud back was noticable but did him beside Leon really make all that difference to the man? The added warmth was nice, yes as was the feeling of a brush of skin where they touched a little.

"I don't. It's just..." Almost as if my mind does not believe this is real, that there has to be something wrong for this to be true.

He reached out a hand to gently touch the side of the other's cheek. "Have any idea where you do or do not wish it to go? Or are you as lost in this as I am?"

LionHeart · Leon!Lion

Leon's eyes stayed on Cloud as the hand laid on his cheek, unreadable steels still remaining.
A shake of his head, "I'm not the most knowledgable person when it comes to this." He finally spoke up again, having only been with one other and that a female, and ontop of that. It had been 6 years ago. So perhaps he was just as lost about all of this as Cloud. Stoic unemotionalness aside.
"I just know I don't feel guilt over this happening, and I also do not want you to feel any over it either."
Letting out a deep breath of slight frustration at his own thoughts, "This doesn't have to happen again if it's unwanted, but it doesn't have to be a one night of guilty memories either."

--Strife · Puppies and Wolves In Your SOLDIER!

Leon's inability to be read was not helping the blond whose eyes searched for something anything to be found in them, some indication of what went through the man's head as he spoke. He was used to being able to tell more intent behind words than he could with this man.

It was a long silence before the blond spoke, eyes looking away from those inpenetrable steels, "It was not... unwanted." No he had certainly wanted it, wanted the man more than he was ever likely to admit.

And he lapsed into silence again hand falling from the other's cheek.

LionHeart · Leon!Lion

Leon's brows furrowed matching his earlier deep breath of frustration. The hand falling away he quickly reached up and his own hand grabbed before it could completely fall away. He clenched it tightly, not in a hurtful manner. But it was an answer in itself as Leon did not know any longer what to say. An absolute in how he held the others hand. His still unreadable eyes that bored into Clouds sitting beside him nude in his own bed.
"Then..what comes, comes?" Leon murmured and leaned into Cloud to kiss him again.